Never have I ever

By Padma Dolma

Well the teenage is a very critical period and most likely to be a period where everything gets intense. This is a story of an Indian – American teenage who struggles not only with her hormonal changes but mental issues as well. The whole thing was paused for a movement when she didn’t grief her father’s death instead she got paralyzed, nothing can explain what happened to her legs not even medical science. When your closest person dies the worst you an expect other than accepting the lost is either you fall in trauma or you face denial and Devi was facing both with her own style, where she didn’t wanna grief her father’s death so she found a distraction for herself without knowing it by paralysing herself. The mind of a human is as powerfull as enough to make you think about such things.

And one day she just started walking as if that’s the most normal thing. She wanted to live her teenage period full with fun which she was unaware of or we can say didn’t get it at all under the parental care of her mother, her mother is quite sensitive about her she tries to act tough but somehow she too fells weak, broken, helpless. While her life was going to be a roller coaster to be, she decided to date anyone before graduation. She convenience her two best friends Eleanor and Fabioula into her super plan for themselves but here’s the twist, one of her friend is gay another one is already dating but she doesn’t know about that along with that she had an unwanted guest in her house, her cousin Kamala who wants to complete her studies and not get married at that moment turns out she also has a secert boyfriend but Devi’s mother wanted her to get married a arranged marriage. It was forced on her cousin that she had to get married to a Indian boy who ever fits her parents criteria.

Devi is very competitive, A+ student with a rival Ben in her class from her middle school they’ve been competing among themselves that these two doesn’t stands each other. But what must be missing in her life is she never dated anyone she was so desperate to have a boyfriend, go on dates, have sex, going to parties, get drunk, and all those famous kids do list, but her desperation lead her to a lie route from where returning was impossible for her where she also have to loose her friends. Pexton her crush for more than 2 years, she got close to him meanwhile they decided to have sex, friends with benefits with no strings attached but things didn’t go her way.

Later thing she could possibly do was to accept that she was fallen apart by the terrific accident she had seen and her father had faced, she is a musician, her father died on the day for her concert before the concert started, her mother and she got into a fight which let her to think her mother didn’t care bout her and her father is the only person who cared about her, and when he got to know about the shifting back to India broke them apart more. She tried to convince herself that it was her father only who loves her and now when he is gone she don’t have anyone who loves her. She moved out from her house and she started staying at her rival Ben’s house.

It was her father’s birthday so her mother wanted them to bite her father goodbye all for good, she kept on denying for so long that she wasn’t sure that if she is ready or not earlier she thought her father was reborn as a Cayote and almost got killed by the wild animal.

But this time her friends, Ben helped her realized the fact that she had to grief to let her go and blocking the thoughts didn’t mean you don’t care enough even to say good bye

The whole story was about hypocrisy of Indian strict culture and modern thoughts clashing amongst themselves until you find your way out by being faithful, honest, and broken, sometimes it’s okay to fell broken.